The Power of a Promise

I wrote this back in Jan 12, 2022.

This is one of many deep thoughts that I’m willing to share with my readers.

” I was singing in verbal then there are certain songs I would do in ASL / English-ish. I was really paying attention this song and it stop me cold on the phrase “I never make a PROMISE ” The song kept going but my signing stopped at the word promise. I froze. In my memory, it unfold what I saw as a child like it was a movie.

For the people who truly know me as a person KNOWS that I will not promise to anything. Like L I T E R A L L Y. I will not promise you to do something and have it done. People seems to get frustrated with me and I just flat out refused. I will say I will try but I will not promise.

Here why –

During my middle school, I was in gym class and I was watching it unfold before my own eyes. It started between two people yelling at each other in sign language and they were EXTREMELY mad. The hands were seriously flying fast but I understood what they were saying. Before I know it, other students were pushing those two kids apart then other people starts to get mad at other student and it just gets bigger and bigger. Teachers walked back in and stopped the whole thing in instant. Here what happen – One person was promising on something then didn’t act on it. The another person really took it in heart and said ” you promised.” Shortly after that event, I start seeing it in other relationships and people were saying it to me easily like they don’t really meant it. Then this song came and I really connected to that song.

BE meaningful. Don’t push aside your words. Are you REALLY caring for that person? If not, then why are you continuing speaking to that person? Why are you lingering them on? Why do you keep those toxic people in your lives? Do you really mean EVERY single word you spoke?

Again, this is why I don’t ” promise ” anything but to my marriage. I promised this man my whole heart and he turned my world upside down. Will I trust next guy? I don’t know if I can.

If any one I feel are toxic to me or to my life, I will walk away without a word. I will literally disappeared from your life. I have done it to my own family members. I don’t keep them in my lives anymore. Why should I? Yeah, they’re my blood but there is NO reason for those type of people behaved the way they did toward me. None. I also have walked out of my Deaf community LIKE literally. THE IDENTITY of who I am. I have walked away from them for over 15 years. SO… if you do something toxic to me and I feel I’ve given you enough chances, your out. The trust is VERY fragile right now because of what I’m dealing with in my personal life. With EVERYone around me. It doesn’t matter who you are to me.

The word Promise is something you should ponder on.

Have a good day. ”

I also want to add that people have told me that they would promise something as if it was a hand out. I flat out refused to take it from them which truly frustrates them. They have learned that they will not say the word promise to me.

What are your thoughts on the word, “Promise” and what does it means to you?

Stay Well,