You read that right, Readers. *Sigh

** As you all know in the month of November post, I’ve shared that Ash was rushed to Animal ER to figure out what was happening. I found out he was asthmatic at the ER. Because I have already set up the primary vet appt a month and half in advance, it arrived so I explained everything and I had notes with me. After vet looking him over and the notes, they’ve diagnosis him with life-long disease from my original concerns. I was totally devasted. Since finding that out, I’ve made several changes to his care and he seems to making some improvement. Ash is not out of the wood yet but he is heading there. All I can ask is that you send good vibes to Ash.

** December, 2024 comes with anniversaries of death of loved ones. I was dealing with holiday stress and grief that is a lot of weight to carry. I’ve sat down with myself and dig up good memories of my time with each family members and sitting down with my emotions. All I can say I’m lucky to know them. The sufferings that they dealt with is no more suffering. Each of them do not deserve this suffering and all I can hope is that they rest in peace. They will not be far from my mind.

With all of the things I’ve listed above that I’m carrying inside of me, I had to spend a whole day trying to get what Ash needs. It was emotional exhausted to carry those on my shoulders. Alone. As soon as I went into my bedroom to get ready to unload my stuff and getting ready to eat dinner but I look through the window, I immediately turn around and walked back outside. I was exhausted because I walked 10 miles at this point so seeing what neighbor is doing have caused me feeling VERY much upset and frustrated. I was not going to put people around this neighbor in danger anymore. There has been several reporting in the past to this home. The best I can describe is more of “Pyromania” in that sense.

** I started something new this month and I’m adventuring into that route. I am actually proud of myself that I went ahead and did it. I am thankful to this well-known person’s advice that I was given. So, Thank you for that great advice. I am not ready to reveal what adventure I’m doing just yet but in due time, I’ll share when I’m ready. ❤

COOKIES!

Top Left – Butterscotch Chip and Sea Salt sprinkle

Middle Right – Chocolate Chip cookies

Bottom Center – M & M cookies

I felt this year cookies was more of a common and I wanted something different in taste and visually. After discussing with a family member, I made this cookies for the first time and I don’t regret one bit. The white ball in the center of the three cookies are called, “Swedish Tea Cake” cookies and it has tangled in many names. I have it with my coffee and it is SO good! My goodness! I can see myself making that cookies often in my near future. ❤

** I have receive a new planner that I am trying out by a different well-known person’s suggestion last year. With my planner journey, I can say I am noticing in my self-growth, and able to keep track of different things such as appointments, random info that I decided to put in and glad I actually did, weather for no reason, personal quotes, traveling, a small bit of journaling in there somewhere, sticky notes got in there somehow with weird notes that has no meaning to it if you look back …

One of several best friends that I have suggested something that she has been doing for years so I tried it out. Wow, that was impactful. I have never heard of it but it insanely works. Word of the year that you would use often throughout. If you fail, that’s fine but get back up and do it from that point. Don’t give up.

To my best friend J, Thank you. And I love you.

Here are my word of the years I’ve used and I started this journey in 2020.

2020 – Phoenix – I was in really bad relationship and the relationship was pretty much ending after of almost 20 years of being together. I find myself keep getting burned and I keep getting up from the floor and taking that one step forward. In that December, I was taken to the hospital and became homeless in a instant.

2021 – Trust – I had hard time trusting people but I had resources given to me. It was very difficult to trust people after what I just experienced.

2022 – Breathe – First apartment on my own as a adult.

2023 – Thrive – I had gotten my first passport and flew to Canada during my 40th birthday and travel quite a bit. I also moved from the state of Massachusetts to Illinois.

2024 – Complete – I would say my year have fallen backward because my mental health turned for the worst. I choose to stop using my Facebook on May 1st. Today, I can say my mental health is gaining the improvement now.

2025 – Optimistic – I’m looking forward to be little more optimistic and be open to opportunity that going to presents to me. I do not know what those are but I’m open to see what they may be.

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Have a safe celebration of entering 2025.

Happy Holidays and Happy New Year!